The Testing times..

21st August..
My state of mind this month has been very bleak.
I am confused, stateless and just upset.
How is it that I am going through this problems now?
It is really taking a toll on me.

But I should get through this difficult times.
Yes, I have done something which I shouldnt be particularly proud of.
But hey if i need to do it, I have no choice.
Life seems static and dull.
One week passes so quickly whilst the next slows like a freight train.

Its not the same anymore in every detail.
Everyone has changed, is it for the good is yet to be known.
The same feeling of caringness seems to be lost.
Perhaps they have fallen to the deeds of Gods.

I am on the verge of losing it.
But I am always reminded by the closest,
That I have to be strong.
This is just the obstacles that are thrown at you.
How you manage is what you are made of.
These are JUST THE TESTING TIMES.

The nouveau..

15th August..ok soo my days has been very boring and no i din update my blogs for day now..i just felt there was no use to update my blog sayin the same thign all over again...but anyway...things were better and also bad at the end but heck it was sumthin to make my blank mind thing something atleast..

Look...sumtimes I do wats best for you...if i think you shudnt do sumthin ...i always think for your own good...just listen to me...dun treat me as if i dunno wat i am doing..when we both agree that i am better at decision making why do you have to treat me otherwise...

I am not shallow to foesake us for any pickle...you get tht in your head...when i said tht and you wanted to leave, who grabbed your hand and made you stay ?...why would i ever do that..because i feel like it?

hey...when you noe aswell that i dun like it when you do sum stuff..why do u do it?...i din shout i wasnt agressive...when i tell you its upsetting me....why?..

I am not angry and i am not pissed...just have a lighter heart..tke things in to stride dun just follow your heart and then regret later...we have been a good streak..and i want to continue and I KNOW IT WILL...dun lose faith..as i havent losed any...

The dilemma.

9th august...it was an extremely boring day today...there was massive inactivity...the thing is..i am short of finances...as per normal as this time of the month...but anyway....i think the boredom is taking a toll on my mental field..

I am not able to start the assignemnt because i think its the boringest thing ever!...ok...maybe because it is...but seriously its because i havent been out...this is my second day at home in a row...thts not me at all...

the worst part is that i have three more days of this to go thru...ok maybe tml i may be meeting nik...but tht seems to be in the drains aswell...because she may not be able to make it...

wait...another option...housemate invites us to zouk tml for a party...now tht depends on whetehr we get free passes...if not he says to go to st james...thts all good...

but seriously...the entrance fees is gonna kill the life of me...

on the lighter side of things...i know why is nik acting weird with me the past few days...i realli am confused...ok i am sure you were right...i am always busy...but judge me on this blog...u realli think so??...hmmm...i leave tht up to you...

but anyway allrite...you tell me...i am appreciative..thank you...

soo how does one not feel bored at this dire times...i tried watchin the NDP..but i lost interest...haiz...i am doomed...i am gonna be a mummy starved out of life itself...

TC!

The silence beckoning...

Thats her!..she is my woman...for close to 3 years now she has stood by me for all the mistakes and anger i have expressed..now words can never describe how i feel for her...sooo wat i am gonna do...is post pics of us evolving all this time...how about tht?!

Soo we will start with the above being the latest...sum 2 and a half weeks ago in subway toa payoh..

this was one of the very first few that we took back in november 2004-
now she claims that she aint photogenic and all tht...but seriously doesnt she look beautiful...


this was taken on the 12th august 2005...i was just back from KL and i needed to annoy the hell out of her...soo wat do i do...i make her pose without any specs...trust me she was like..her middle name!!...moooo












......pure speechless....





had to add this!!! abt the same period as the above


one of the very few times where i wasnt interested in taking photos...i look bad but heck as long as she looks good rite....november 2005..

HAHAHAHA....look at me...i did sum weird hairstyle and when i took this pic she was still laughing at my hair....13th JAN 06












...HDB sitting area near the methodist church Toa Payoh...both skipped class....13th Feb 06...

















this was on the 27th march 2006...we couldnt meet up for her bdae sooo decided to premeet and chill out...












now the date was 31st May 06 and she had a new look...she looked amazing as she did on 23rd august 04 and now!












this is the latest i have...of us...sum 2 weeks ago...her smile is sooooo nice here...makes me happy everyday when i switch on my laptop..and this pic is the one that beckons my screen...makes my day!!












Well...i had loads and loads pics of us and her.. but i cant just put everythin on the net...this has been an amazing trip for me and i pray tht it gets even better because shes my guide to my unknown horizons...

The meeting...

November 11th 2004.. a day that will live in massive infamy...the day where i met the one and only pakistani playboy...or wait indian bengali..aameen..

Location: MDIS old HQ OLD Changi Road.
Time: 2.00PM
Subject:IT...

OK so class started at 1 as per usual since the students and the lecturer agreed that it was better if we finished class earlier...soo i was in the last row again..VERY VERY NORMAL...2 pm sharp...the door opens...a slightly dark figure appears...Long straight hard all laid to the back...a t-shirt all tucked in with slightly faded jeans...

So there was sum mumbling with our lecturer when she uttered the dreaded..."GO,go seat beside the big man at the back"

Few seconds later, "Excuse me.."...i looked up...he pointed at the seat next to me..while this was happening i was thinkign "hmm...bloody pakistani..arrgh"

I was like wadeva ok...let him seat...i was continuing my work...then another thing disturbed me again...and guess wat it was him again..."How?" pointing at his screen...i was arrrgh....

So tht was the beginning of this friendship...since then we have gone a lot of shit together...and loads of happy ones aswell...

We went to Tanjong Pgar once and drank for like close to 300 dollars and we din pay...we run to the mrt celebrating as if we defeated a tyrant..

tht was us the very same day sum time in 2005...pakistani playboy rite??

Times has changed and we matured badly...we have become very concentrated and yet after 3 years of friendship..we are still the same...

this is us now...2007

well thts all for now....i hope this friendship stays strong...peace out!!

The day of the comeback king...

Hi there...its been almost 6 months since i blogged...i am not sure why i just wanted to have a break from blogging...i dunno why...i guess sumthings didnt change about me...but well now i am back and i hope i can continue this trend of bloggin....these couple of weeks has been kinda interesting but also boring in some aspects...offcourse i have been meeting nik more often than ususal since shes working..so she has sum time to spare and no ppl its not me following her to ntuc...its nice dinners ok...well besides that..a lot has been happening at my home aswell...my fren had a bad break up but looks like hes dealing with it fine...and finally he can start moving on properly...

now...i am soo bloody bugged....i dun get it...why is that whenever i talk to nik on the phone in the morning hours...all i hear is sum bloody wind sound...i just dun understand...i dun have any of those problems with anyone else...i just tried calling a number and its working fine....its soo bloody annoyin...either shes not tokin properly or tht cockroach of hers is not working properly...either way i think shes not toking close to the mic...i dunno...its annoyin coz its irritatiing and she being the way she is just saying that she will talk to me sum other time...

I have told her to msg me but i am still waiting...probly she aint gonna msg or anythin...arrgh...

Btw yesterday..i had an orientation session to attend to and i think i did well enuff...its my second one being invited to do those...

Today it was suppose to be my grp's presentation but ones sick and ones in malaysia....so i was left alone...and i think i did pretty ok...i think i was the onli one who made the class laugh and i think its a good thign tht you can present with humour...even tho its a dry subject...

A week from now i would have done the report...and then its full scale exams mugging...DRQA is pretty allrite...but CDT...i dunno...32 lectures...i just dunno wat to do...

Anyway here I am back again with a new template and with sense that I may stick a longer time this time....